I've had multiple people die In my world too. It doesn't feel like it gets easier. When things happen unexpectedly it trains my brain to be afraid. To always be thinking about what bad thing could happen next. I bet your brain has actually changed in response to all of those deaths that keep occurring in similar ways. I got ptsd last year when I save someone from drowning. For a little bit I thought they were going to die. It was about two hours before we got medical help And she also had a brain bleed and because my mom and had a brain bleed I just knew all these bad things that could happen and we were stuck in a hole floating in water. And my brain immediately went to all these images of funerals and what it's like when parents see their children die. I definitely have to be nicer to myself because I was really hard on myself for how my brain changed. And how hard it was for me to recover over the next few months even though she didn't die.
So sorry to hear about your aunt. What a special relationship you have had with her. I’m glad she is recovering- and that you are going slower and more gently too. I am with you in the need to do that!
I'm so sorry to hear about the challenges you and your family have faced. All best wishes to your aunt and to all of you. The volume dial metaphor is wonderful--thanks so much for sharing it.
I've had multiple people die In my world too. It doesn't feel like it gets easier. When things happen unexpectedly it trains my brain to be afraid. To always be thinking about what bad thing could happen next. I bet your brain has actually changed in response to all of those deaths that keep occurring in similar ways. I got ptsd last year when I save someone from drowning. For a little bit I thought they were going to die. It was about two hours before we got medical help And she also had a brain bleed and because my mom and had a brain bleed I just knew all these bad things that could happen and we were stuck in a hole floating in water. And my brain immediately went to all these images of funerals and what it's like when parents see their children die. I definitely have to be nicer to myself because I was really hard on myself for how my brain changed. And how hard it was for me to recover over the next few months even though she didn't die.
So sorry to hear about your aunt. What a special relationship you have had with her. I’m glad she is recovering- and that you are going slower and more gently too. I am with you in the need to do that!
I'm so sorry to hear about the challenges you and your family have faced. All best wishes to your aunt and to all of you. The volume dial metaphor is wonderful--thanks so much for sharing it.
Thanks, Sarah 💛